My incontinence is not caused by a formal disease but rather it is caused by congenital birth defect. Internal structures in my body were not fully formed and that is what causes my incontinence. There are no true surgical options for my birth defects that can cure my incontinence. There are ‘experimental’ surgical options that are not covered by insurance and are not guaranteed to work that I have opted not to do at this stage in my life. For one thing, with insurance not covering them they are extremely expensive. I would rather manage my incontinence with diapers and sometimes medication. I have taken a few medications to try and just manage it but they are expensive and not that effective. They would never be able to cure it anyways just reduce it. Not much can honestly be done for structural defect incontinence that you are born with and never fully formed. I don’t know the whole medical terminology for what didn’t form but it is a combination between my bladder and the nerves within the bladder that send signals to the brain indicating that you have to urinate or defecate.
I accepted a long time ago that diapers were going to be a part of my life forever and I made the absolute best of it. Now, I love diapers and can’t imagine my life without them. They give me so much more then management for urinary and fecal incontinence; they give me comfort, security, and joy in general that I love. Sometimes life gives you things that may seem like a curse at the time but honestly if you learn to embrace it and make the best out of it then it will usually turn out to be a positive thing in your life rather than a negative. Life is too short to be filled with negative things, fill it with positives!
Supposively, birth defect incontinence is not as common as other forms of incontinence but it is fairly common in the overall statistics. That is what I was told at least. Honestly, if there was an operation that was discovered tomorrow that would fix my incontinence, I would not have it. This is who I am and I have learned to cope and make the best of it. It really doesn’t cause me that much trouble as many may think. I mean the hardest thing to watch out for really is poopy diapers in really public and close quarter areas and the only thing there is I just don’t want others to have to “suffer” the smell if I do happen to mess my diapers. But, even that can be managed with plastic pants which significantly reduces the smell.
P.S. Thanks to Calista for your question – hopefully this answered it!
While I do enjoy sharing my photos and I do understand some of the risks with that – I was hoping that people would appreciate the reason why I copyright and do not want my photos distributed everywhere. It seems as if someone has used some sort of software to copy my images from my blog and elsewhere. If I continue to find people ripping off my photos and posting them elsewhere then I will be forced to stop taking photos and posting them and sharing them.
I understand I am sure there are some who save them somehow to their computer and I am willing to accept that…but NOT distribute them. If I continually find my photos distributed on other sites then I will not take photos any longer and share them on here nor anywhere else. I like to keep my photos here and only here as much as possible.
I am sure there are going to be the negative people and say “well if its on the internet then its fair game” – don’t bother commenting if you are going to say that. I copyrighted them for a reason and have gone to a couple measures to indicate I would not like them distributed everywhere. Show a little bit of respect and courteousness for what other people provide, please. This is the type of thing that makes me hesitant on sharing more photographs on the internet is because people go to great extremes and feel they can do what they want in this community and elsewhere. If you are the one doing this – I would really appreciate it and warn you to stop.
Since I am sitting at work right now I figured I would blog about what it’s like wearing a diaper at work while I am actually doing it. Well, I must say it’s very comforting when you first get into work and know that you have a nice fresh diaper on that will protect you the rest of the day. Plus, it provides a little bit of a cushion for those people like me that are sitting a significant portion of the day. Also, I will say I am the type of person that sort of likes to hear that crinkle sound of the diaper when you get up or walking down the hall. I find it is loud enough for me to hear but not loud enough for really others to take notice.
For those of you scared to wear to work – I would say it’s almost impossible to be caught unless you try. Now, I am sure this depends on your profession but tucking in your shirt and typical work pants or jeans are typically good enough at concealing the diaper and most of the noise while allowing you to get the satisfaction of wearing a diaper to work. If you have any questions about wearing a diaper to work then feel free to ask.
Wearing a diaper to work in my opinion almost increases productivity because it just makes you feel good and when you are comforted and feel good then I find I do my work quicker and more efficient. Not to mention the fact it saves you trips to the restroom especiall if it is not conveniently available to you (I.e right across the hall). Just my two cents though – thoughts?
Someone asked a question about roughly how much do I spend a month on diapers. That is actually a really good question. I truly had to sit there and think about exactly what I buy in a month. So, here is the breakdown of what I spend roughly per month on adult diapers and diaper related products (i.e. baby powder, vaseline, etc). In regards to diapers I probably spend in the range of $70 a month on adult diapers. I typically order one case of Bambino Diapers a month so that runs a lot cheaper now since they came out with their new lower prices (helped me out a lot!). Then, I typically order 1 package of Attends diapers a month so that is roughly $20 give or take…so, it comes out to roughly $70-$80 per month on adult diapers alone. Which, is not too bad. A lot of times I still have some leftover from the previous month so I may not order as many diapers the next month – it just depends whether I have more accidents or messes that month. Just varies. In regards to the baby accessories – I typically spend probably $10 a month on this sort of stuff. Mainly that is wipes because messes typically take a bit more wipes to clean up so I usually buy the refiller pack of Pampers Swipers (thicker wipe for “big messes”) which runs roughly $6. Then, probably $4 for maybe some additional baby powder or baby vaseline to prevent chaffing. Sometimes, I will buy Desitin so that factors into the cost per month sometimes.
Obviously, this varies certain months but on average that is roughly the amount spent on diapers per month. I have a huge stash of diapers honestly so if I wanted to take off a few months and not buy any diapers then I could but I am the type of person that likes to feel comforted about having a lot of diapers. I know, I know – I am strange like that. But, I would estimate that I probably have over 500 diapers at any given time. Many are still in their case boxes but yeh. Being incontinent makes you always prepared for the worst so I make sure I have a good stock of adult diapers and baby accessories such as baby powder and wipes on hand just in case.
Hopefully that answered your question on how much I spend roughly on diapers per month. I am curious how different I am compared to others…what does everyone else spend ‘roughly’ of course on diapers and baby accessories per month?
I have been asked by many people outside the United States what the ABDL community is like here. To be honest, I have never truly participated in an ABDL ‘meeting’ or anything of that sort. I have met up with another girl that wears diapers before and I have met a few other women who have actually had to wear diapers from incontinence (met them at an incontinence support group a long time ago). I have seen quite a few postings for the US in regards to meetings and ‘munches’. I think there is even a group that gets together and goes camping.
I live in North Carolina and I know there is a group that meets about an hour and half or so away from me once a month. I mean I would say there are multiple meeting opportunities but I honestly have trouble making them because I quite busy or have other obligations I have to attend to. Plus, hearing certain peoples talk online and through message boards saying extremely inappropriate stuff as well as how mean people can be makes me very cautious about just showing up to these things. Unfortunately, as with any group, not just ABDLs – there are always those select few that ruin the ‘fun’ for many of us. Not to say I would never meet other ABDLs but I am the type of person that would want to not only talk online to someone before I met them anywhere but also over the phone just to get a sense of who it is. You never can be too careful who you meet nowadays.
Honestly, I wish there was a central ‘base’ online where people could easily setup meetings and times of get togethers so that all ABDLs could check it and setup times or look if anything is going on near them. It would have to be something that is very universally known among ABDLs so everyone used it otherwise it would just disappear and not be very succesful. I thought about trying to set something like that up but, not exactly sure how. I think it would be neat though and I think it would facilitate things for people trying to meet other ABDLs.
So, I get a lot of questions on how exactly I go about putting my diaper on and I see a lot of posts on message boards on the best way to put a diaper on. So, I am going to tell you what works with me. This is not to say it is the best for you but it works the best for me. It also varies by diaper how I do it but mostly remains the same.
For the typical Bambino Diaper that I wear most often – I usually put it on while I am laying down. It is easier and also gives me the best fit. So, first I spread out the diaper in front of me making sure every thing is unfolded properly. Then, I put the powder actually on the diaper before I get down on it so I can see where it all goes and there is no need to actually put the powder on any of my ‘areas’ if I put enough on the actual diaper seat, backing, and front area. Then, I lay down on it positioning the diaper so that the diaper is higher in the back and comes just below my belly button in the front.
Then, being careful to keep the flaps straight when taping the diaper otherwise it can get that ‘cutting into you feeling’ if you happen to have tight clothes on (i.e. me with my typically tight jeans). I always tape up the top tabs first so that I can position my legs afterwards to make sure that diaper is correctly aligned on my body before taping up the bottom ones. You want to allow your legs to be able to move freely and not tape the two lower tabs too low otherwise it can cause discomfort in multiple ways. So, I tape the two bottom tabs still laying down. Some people say they stand up to do that but I have never done it that way.
Once the diaper is fully taped up, I stand up and make sure everything looks good. Sort of wiggle my legs to get the seat of the diaper ‘loose’ and I will typically fold the front of the Bambino Diaper down a bit. I like that little blue colors in the front of the Bambino’s when you fold it down – I don’t know I think it kind of has a cute and babyish look to it but, that is just me. So, nothing complicated or extravagant but for those wondering how I put my diapers on – there you go.
The only advice I have is to not tape the tabs too tight otherwise it can cause a lot of discomfort that you necessarily won’t feel immediately but as you move about the day, the tightness will definitely become more prevalent and start cutting into you if its too tight and be very discomforting. So, make it snug I guess is the keyword here. A snug diaper is a perfect diaper after all. And, a little thing I always do if I am not wearing any pants is I like to have the little ‘pouch’ of the seat of the diaper (esp. the Bambino’s do this well) stick out. I don’t know what it is but its something that I like to do so I will typically maneuver the diaper so as to get that little pouch sticking out between the seat of the diaper and back. I am sure some of you know what I am referring too…lol sort of hard to describe.
So, my readers have spoken and it looks to be a consensus on what will make my blog better overall. I have received many suggestions so far but the biggest one seems to be to post more often. I can definitely do that and I will do that. I will post at least once everyday…it might not all be diaper related because something diaper related doesn’t happen to me everyday of course. But, hopefully you all will be interested in a bit more about my life and my daily happenings too. I also received a suggestion about a live chatroom where I would be on to talk and answer questions like 2 times a week. Not a bad suggestion, the only thing I would request is that it does not turn into a chatroom where people get “nasty” to each other about things as I have seen in other chatrooms. My whole goal for this blog is that it remain natural, clean, and organized. So, I will look for a chatroom software that I can install into Wordpress that will possibly allow me to do that. Many of you have also requested more photos…which I thought would be a big one. I will try to post photos more often. The only thing I ask is that you be understanding as I am not always thinking about taking photos everyday or every week for that matter as I am busy between my job and hanging out with friends and what not. But, note taken and I will definitely try to do that a bit more…in fact here is one of my latest:
Another suggestion was to get Peter to post as well. I asked him and he definitely said he would – he just never thought people would like to hear from him. But, he will definitely post now as well. So, look out for his posts. Well, its early in the morning and I better get to bed so I will maybe post again later today. Have a good Monday everyone.
I wanted to share my experience of what I like to call “The Perfect Diaper Position”. When I refer to this I am referring to the best position I lay to sit/lay/stand that makes me feel the best when it comes to having a diaper on. Now, I am not the biggest AB in the world as some may know (I am more of a DL) but I do like certain AB aspects. My perfect position is laying on my stomach with just a nice fresh Bambino Diaper on and my sports bra while on top of a nice made up bed. I love it…when my bed is all made up and room is all clean and just laying on top of my nice made up bed with a fresh thick diaper on. I typically will just fall asleep for a little bit and take a nap maybe during the day after my workout or something. To many this may not seem very AB but doing this really does something to me inside. It makes me have this indescribable feeling of being ‘babyish’ because my diaper butt is technically sticking up so if I have an accident whether it be a wet or messy diaper that Peter will just be able to come in while I am napping and pull back my diaper and check me. Its really hard to describe but this combination of not only the position and comfort but mixed with emotions and experiences with this makes this my killer perfect combination of making me feel like a baby with a nice thick diaper on. My room is typically set at the perfect temperature so being able to sleep on top of all the covers is easily possible to me because my bed is so important to me in regards to coziness.
While, I have a few other positions that make me feel very babyish, this one probably does it for me the most. It is one of my favorite things as I love not wearing pants around my place because there is just something about my little diapered butt showing that I actually like. I know, strange. Its strange because I like the little outpouching sometimes that the Bambino Diaper makes especially when you first put it on where it actually looks like you pooped in it – but you didn’t (at least not yet hehe) but I don’t know why I like that little minute detail about the diaper but I do. I guarantee though there are little quirky but specific things that many other ABDL’s out there love about their diapers or the position they sit/lay/stand when having a diaper on. Feel free to share your thoughts with me as I really do love hearing from others.
Diapers for me are a part of life. I am incontinent and have grown up my whole life wearing diapers. From just a baby I have never known anything different. So, when people asks me what its like to wear diapers its honestly a very loaded answer and complicated. On one hand its “second-nature” wearing diapers for me because I have worn them so long. On the other hand though its the biggest comfort and enjoyment in the world because it absolutely makes me feel safe, protected, and just takes the worries away in my life. I have included a photo in this post as a segway into my next paragraph.
I liked the black and white photo look – I think it makes my poor photography taking look professional. Anyways, I wanted to make a small post on something that has been on my mind. Wearing diapers for me is what defines me in so many ways that I can not honestly describe them all. Here is the thing that I don’t understand, a diaper is a diaper…nothing more and nothing less. Once you realize that a diaper is merely just a diaper and people do not care as much as you think they do that you are wearing one then you will become a bit more comfortable with yourself. It took me awhile to get over my ‘fear’ of other people finding out I wear diapers because I had to do it quickly.
In high school was when I truly had to learn to get over what others thought of me wearing diapers. Gym class freshman year was wear it began. Of course I had to change into the assigned gym clothes that we were assigned for gym class every Tuesday and Thursday (that was our gym schedule in high school). So, at first I tried being the last one out of the locker room so no one would find out but I ended up always being late to get into the gym which being the good student I am, I hated that. So, I tried to do it discreetly as possible. I got by without anyone noticing for about a week and then well it happened…I still remember her name too. Laura Conrad, yeh I said her full name because I remember it so well and honestly I should thank her because it started me on a realization of becoming more comfortable with myself and diapers. I was taking off this Abercrombie skirt I had been wearing that day and I had left my long t-shirt on first to try and cover it up mainly before anyone could see. But, Laura saw it and completely blurted out “Is that really a diaper?” – she was unsure of course because probably surprised…and well that did it. My Attends (at the time the ones with the nice blue tapes and thicker) were discovered. Everyone of course started staring and I basically ended up admitting in a very emberrassed way that it was a medical issue and you could tell some girls felt bad and didn’t care but of course there were those select few. Lets just say I was the talk of the high school that day. Now, nobody truly teased me for it because of the medical condition aspect of it but the stares from people were enough. But, this taught me how to ignore what people though and truly realize that deep down most people, once you get past the “being cool” stage, really don’t care about something like diapers. As long as you are not flaunting them everywhere then its really not that big of a deal because eventually the talk dies down and it all passes unless of course you give it a reason to stay around.
Once you get past the initial shock of people finding out about your diapers and realizing there really isn’t a way to talk your way out of it – your learn to cope and adapt. That is exactly what I did and I have been appreciative ever since. It causes less stress, less worry, and a lot more openness that didn’t exist before. You find out your true friends and that is very important. So, my advice – don’t flaunt your diapers like some neurotic crazy person but a quick flash from bending over or changing clothes in a locker room, you should learn to be OK with it and move on and not care what the person next to you thinks so much. After all, you most likely will never see them again in your life or perhaps they may find it interesting and may make a new friend, I know that happened with me a few times.
For those who have requested to see the dressing room diaper photo – I reposted it below. If you want to criticize or analyze the photo to somehow disprove what I am saying then fine. Your choice. I just would appreciate people not contacting me and making fun of my figure otherwise photos may not be posted at all if people are going to criticize that much. But, I thank you all that have given me positive feedback and are interested in the content I post more than just the photos.
My name is Adrian Surley and I am 24 years old. I graduated from the University of Florida and I am a big time Gator's fan. I wear diapers full time because I am incontinent. I have come to accept it and really look at the great things about diapers. More
